Rebirth
by Eiluned (unseelie_eiluned@hotpop.com)

Archive: Yes, but please let me know where it's going first.
Disclaimer: Jean belongs to Marvel, not me. Alas, alack... a lass, I lack... ::smacks self::
Rating: G
Summary: What do you do when your world is turned upside down? Angst, ficlet. Jean POV.
Notes: Dedicated to my best friend, Meg. ::hugs:: Thanks to Deke for the quick beta.

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You know, I never really thought about what it would feel like to lose Scott. Yes, I thought I had lost him when he merged with Apocalypse, but I haven't ever thought about really losing him. As in losing his love, his affection, his attention.

I've felt him slipping away for months. He isn't the same man he was before, and I can accept that. What he experienced was more than enough to change a man. And when he told me he needed time, I gladly gave it. I was so happy to have him back that I would have given him the moon if he'd asked for it. I even gave up sex.

The breakup was a mutual thing. Amicable, if any breakup is amicable. The divorce papers have been filed. We both moved to different rooms. I don't think either of us could face the prospect of staying in the room where we'd built a life. I'm keeping myself busy with the school; he's away on missions. We don't see each other much. I try to ignore the fact that he's spending a lot of time with Emma.

But something strange has happened to me. It's like... it's like my life has suddenly opened up in front of me. Things that I would or could never have done when I was with Scott suddenly appeal to me. I think I'm learning to stand on my own two feet after so many years being part of the ScottJean entity. And it's glorious. It's liberating. It's like a rebirth into a new life.

Sometimes I think this divorce is the worst thing to happen to me, and sometimes it's the best. Maybe it's a combination of the two. But I'm doing the only thing I can do.

I'm moving on.

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